staying optimistic...

i admit that i'm a pretty optimistic person, but life has its ups and downs.

some major things to think about... and when you think enough of them, it turns to anxiety, stress and frankly, some sleepless nights.

my definition of sleepless nights is when i don't fall asleep until 2 hrs from the time i hit the bed, and during that time, my brain is usually in a flurry of activity.

i know, everything's gonna turn out great... well there's just some things that will haunt you no matter what.

and when one goes down, another comes to take its place... neverending spiral!

self-motivation and encouragement can only go so far. some positive words from friends will definitely help and go a really, really long way.

at least 3 major things... don't even get me started.

what i do know is that some things work better with luck, but not just relying on luck...

foresee a few more strands of white hair. cutting them away, sadly, doesn't remove the worrying stuff.

p.s. thinking of may help more. so far it's been working. oh well.

updates...

haven't really been updating my blog for a couple of weeks.

only this morning had i been attending my very own convocation - it wasn't really something that i looked forward to, but because it was a once-in-a-lifetime thing, i guess its something you gotta go thru...

it was about 2 hours in all... and i waited till the very last 15 min before i went up to collect my stuff. the whole thing was quite formal, though it was quite long and...

dun think i wanna talk abt it now when i'm too zzz.

another time.

好久没听到的好声音。。。

最近，不知何故，又积极地寻找一把许久未听到的好声音。

可能是因为在电视节目上观看到此人，让我想起了他所唱过的歌。

大家如果听到此人的歌，在看到此人在电视上滑稽的表演，必定想到：

这人臃肿的样貌，似乎与他歌手的身份起不了对比，做不了挂钩。

其实，并不是他的身份，而是他所擅长的歌曲的曲类。

如果没有记错，应该是自红孩儿单飞后，自己闯出一片属于自己的风格与音乐世界。

此人乃张克帆。

从小就已经听过他的歌曲，大多是情歌。只因当时年纪小，未尝过爱情的酸与甜，苦与乐，所以歌曲倒是会哼一两句，其中的意义就不太能了解。

今时不同往日，岁月的磨练，是能彻彻底底改变一个人的世界观。

姑且不说这一人的世界观是如何，因为这不是我想说的话题。

若要问是何时开始真正去品味他的歌，应该是2005的下半年。

歌曲似乎预言了一件事，那时候也是个非常时期。细节就不说了，相信认识我较深的人会知道我在说的事。

有一首歌，完全地诠释了我当时的感受。现在细细品味，字字句句，吻合到了极点。

这首歌，就是〈〈结局〉〉。

从头到尾，没有一句话不反映了我的心情，我的内心话。

如今听起来，倒不是一首不好听的歌。Youtube却找不到这首歌的MV。也罢。。。

应该不只我一人对这首歌有着那么深切的感受吧。。。 细节可能不同，但。。。

结局还是一样的。