writer's block.

was fiddling ard wif blogger's settings, trying to find sthg to write.

when i didnt update my blog as often, my loyal audience-frens *gently* remind mi.

when i try to update my blog as often as i can, i can't find anything to write.

writer's block.

ideas for my blog usualli come from sparks, from fleeting thots, that cld be condensed into words.

looked ard some of my frens' blogs trying to get some inspiration... sorry guys to disappoint u.

i think most prob i'm tired.

physically, yes. have been helping ard the family biz with serious manual labor. as expected, there was no pay but i didnt mind. and i didnt help for any plan to get paid.

mentally, perhaps. losing brain juice for fyp.

spiritually, i dun think so. given that i'm a free thinker.

emotionally, hmmm? my r/s life has always been a clean slate. in my blog i often talk abt r/s as if i'm some expert... actualli i'm far from one. they r jus some observations.

was chatting online with sh yest. thx sh for the nice comments on my 5As... haha a book, u said. now, we need lotsa material if we wanna write abt r/s, tho its always been ard!

n oso thks for the encouragement. yeah i'm sure things will work out well for u n mi.

k... wat to write abt nxt?

2007... coming to an end. wat have i achieved this year?

i'm not in any mood to write abt achievements, and i dun count academic results as achievements. it's juz mi la.

had a fren who asked mi this Q: "wun u like, after a sem of v hard work n on getting the results, look back on the days when u slogged like hell?"

no.

wat's past is past. sure i worked hard, but when it's over, it's over.

this is sthg i live by. i'm not a "yesterday" or "last time" person.

that said, does it mean i do not think abt the past? i do, but i do not stay long in them.

hmm... i feel the writer's block effect wearing off.

i wonder if the "when it's over, it's over" principle which i live by is a little harsh? perhaps heartless? it somehow means, no second chances!

well, there's only the road ahead. n 2nd chances only mean tt ppl wun treasure wat they r having. so this axiom means reminds me constantly that chances will knock on only once. there's only today to chase after your dreams.

kinda getting philosophical... towards the cynical side...

another axiom is... forgive n forget. hate is a heavy burden to carry.

forgiving is ez... forget? but even as one forgives, there's no guarantee of a full pardon.

ok, better stop this endless spiral of self-questioning... n putting my mood down big time.

things will get better in 2008.

wun they?